Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Moving, last post here, I think

Ok, I have a new blog, www.crazy-is.blogspot.com. Find me there! FYI, right now my template sucks, but I'm working on it.

Monday, September 11, 2006


Ok, so I know that people have been reading this blog and so I just have to ask...are my ramblings not worth a comment here and there? Come on people, this is good writing and ya know it, lol. Feedback is a good thing.

God Bless America

Ok, now I'm sure that everyone has heard their parents or someone else say "I remember exactly where I was the day..." Maybe it was Pearl Harbor or the day John F. Kennedy was shot or when they played White Christmas in Vietnam (that was the signal to evacuate). I never thought there would be something to happen in MY lifetime for those words to come out of my mouth.

Then came September 11, 2001. I can tell you exactly where I was, what I was doing, that entire day. I was up early, Kaylie was only 11 months old at the time. I had worked out and had come in and sat down on the couch to watch tv. When I turned it on, the 1st plane had already hit. Of course, nothing along the lines of terrorism even crossed my mind. I didn't live in a country capable of being penetrated by anyone. As I was watching what I though was news of a random plane crash, I saw the 2nd plane hit. I was in shock, I still didn't really understand what was going on. I knew this couldn't be just a coincidence, but terrorism still hadn't crossed my mind.

As I'm watching this horrible scene unfold on live tv, they announce a plane has hit the Pentagon. Ok, the Pentagon, for me at least, represents all that is strong and impenatrable in our country. You just can't get to the Pentagon. I knew that was were all of our military and intelligence headquarters were located. At this point I am incredibly scared. All I can think is we are under attack. If they can get the Pentagon, they can get anywhere.

I just sat there, on my couch, watching the Twin Towers and the Pentagon burn. As I sat there, I started thinking, how long can they burn before they fall, not knowing that this was to be the inevitable outcome. Then, it happened, they fell. I can't tell you how much I cried that day and others to follow. My entire world and how secure I felt in it had just been destroyed.

My kids will never get to experience pre-9/11 life like we did. All they will ever know is post-9/11 and the paranoia and security issues and the elevated security levels and war.

But, maybe it for the better that this is all they will know. They will not lose the innocence that I and so many others lost that day.

Once thing that was good about that day, was how it brought us together as a country, a united people, and continues to do so. Everyone will remember 9/11/01 in different ways and some will only know as much as they read in a school book. But hopefully, my kids will be as proud of the priviledge to live in this county as I always will.

I kept several newspaper editions from 9/11/01 and the following days and perhaps when my kids are older they will read them and learn just a little bit more about what happened.

God Bless America

Friday, September 08, 2006


Yesterday, Kaylie had soccer practice and, up until he got arrested, her father came to each one. If you read yesterday's post then you know he is out of jail. The bastard didn't even bother to show up for her practice or even call her to let her know he wouldn't be there. I know his ass wasn't at work, because, when he works he is out of town and on Wednesday, he was at home.

So now it's in the back of my mind that he may not pick her up from school today, even though, it's supposed to be her weekend at his house. If that ASSHOLE doesn't pick her up today, I will ream him up one side and down the other. I don't give a shit how mad you are at me, don't you dare take it out on my daughter. He has never done that before, but, he has also never ended up in jail because he hasn't paid child support before either. What the fuck is wrong with some of the men out there?? Some of them pay their child support each and every month and see their kids all the time and, others think that because, and I quote "this is what you wanted", they don't have to do a damn thing.

Hopefully when Kaylie is older she will see her father the way he really is, although, for her sake, I hope he changes.

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Update on The Loser

I completely forgot about this in my obsession about being old. Y esterday when Kaylie told me about her tooth she, of course, wanted to call her daddy. Now, at this point I don't know if he has gotten out of jail or what, getting information from the damn sheriff's department is pretty damn near impossible. So, I decided to just dial the number and give her the phone, because, I reeeeaaaaalllly didn't want to talk to his girlfriend. Well, fuck me, he answers the phone. Hmmm, I guess mommy, once again, has bailed her stupid son out of another mess he created by his own lack of responsibility. But, hey, that bail money comes to me, so who give a shit.

Kaylie has soccer practice tonight and I am assuming they will be there. Can't tell you how excited I am (I'm being sarcasic, sometimes sarcasm doesn't come across in emails and blogs and such). Hopefully, he will be smart (very doubtful) and keep any comment he may have to himself and hopefully stay faaaaaaaaaaaaar away from me. I mean, it's a big fucking soccer field, can't you sit somewhere other than right next to me.

I believe I will continue to be the bigger person, most definitely in front of my daughter. He's just lucky I won't have any alcohol before the practice, I probably wouldn't be so nice.

UGH, I'm starting to feel old...again

Guess what??!!?? Kaylie lost her first tooth yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!! How exciting is that. She was so proud and the little gap in her bottom teeth is so cute. So, last night, the tooth fairy, of course, had to visit. And, of course, all the tooth fairy had last night was a twenty and I'm not sure that was how much she wanted to spend. Anyway, we are putting the girls to bed and Kaylie has already explained the whole tooth fairy thing to Haley and while upstairs, of course, they are discussing it again. Kaylie starts to tell Haley that the tooth fairy is gonna get her. Thank goodness Haley wasn't paying attention. I could just see her freaking out and being scarred for life thinking the tooth fairy will GET her.

Ok, so I run across the street to Walgreens, because, like I said, the tooth fairy has a budget. I got change and I left $5 under Kaylie's pillow. Now, she has come to the conclusion that the tooth fairy gives you money based on how old you are.

Oh. God. What. Have. I. Done????????

How do I change this little mindset?? No honey, the tooth fairy only gives you that much for your first tooth, from now on you will only get quarters? I don't think that my, loves to go shopping for clothes and shoes, five year old is gonna go for that.

Who the hell came up with all this tooth fairy, Easter Bunny, Santa Claus, bullshit anyway???

By the way, the youngun behind the counter at Walgreens called me ma'am and asked if I was a teacher. I should have smacked him in his head with the Twizzlers I was buying, the little punk.

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

No Title, why does there always have to be a damn title??

This past weekend something happened that really made me feel better about alot of things. On Sunday, Chris went to the Memphis - Ole Miss game (GO TIGERS!!). This left me at home with the girls, no prob, it was a nice day, plenty to do. I decided to do some cleaning (I should say MORE cleaning, since I'm not sure I EVER do anything else) and decided to tackle our upstairs closet (I know you've never seen it, no one has, it's totally embarassing). I started cleaning the closed and the girls were cleaning their room at the same time.

Where was Alyssa you ask?

Downstairs fending for herself, ha, just kidding, taking a nap. That child has decided that I am not to leave her sight, lest I disappear and she never see me again.

Back to my point, don't interrupt!

While cleaning, Chris calls, just to "check in". He is apparently afraid that these children of ours will take over while he is gone and tie me up and rampage the house. That is, in fact, always a possibility. I assure him that things are fine, everyone is alive and well. Well after I get off the phone with him, I have a voicemail. I check it and it was from Liz, Chris' ex-wife. She was just calling to talk with Haley. I called her back and she and Haley talked for a few minutes and then Haley brings me the phone back. Liz was still on the phone so we started talking. Note that we have met several times and briefly spoken to each other, there has never been any issues between the two of us, which I am grateful for.

Anyways, we talked on the phone like we were old friends, talking about our babies, mine 7 months, hers 7 weeks. Talked about the kids and how they act sometimes and how we react to that and just all kinds of shit. We also talked about how glad we were that our situtation has been so good, as far as, the kids and getting along with each other and all that. During and after our conversation, which was fairly long, I realized that if we had met each other under different circumstances, we probably would have been friends. We have alot more in common than I realized, we both have stupid, irrational fears where are children are concerned. My husband would probably not like it, but I would like for the two of us to talk more often, she's a pretty cool person (hmmm, hope she didn't get off the phone thinking, I don't like that bitch). Lots of people talk with there spouses exes, hey just because they didn't get along doesn't mean we can't, right??

Anyway, this all just made me even more hopeful that we can all continue to get along well and raise our kids

Dooo deeee doooo...

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Tuesday, September 05, 2006


I just really need to scream!!! This day has been waaaaay too busy. I have a Compliance Review that I was supposed to have completed last Friday; anyone wanna guess if I acutally completed it? Of course not, so today, I am trying my best to get all this shit finished (FYI, it's definitely not something that can be done in one day) and my boss is giving me crap that is not even work related to do. HELLO, I'm trying to do your compliance review, due last week!!!!!! The fucking phone won't stop ringing, and of course, client's come in that I don't know about and I have to scramble to get shit together for a meeting!!!!!

Also, I went online to make sure that my insurance company had sent insurance info to the bank for the new truck. I get online and the only vehicle they have listed on the policy is my van! WTF!!!!! First of all, last month after I took Chris's old truck off the policy and added the new one, I did this online, I get the new policy docs and, go figure, they only added the new truck. Our premium was alllll kinds of jacked up. I called and had them remove the truck as of the day I tried to do it online. I get my new docs which were finally correct so I thought all was good. Obviously not! Anyway, it took being on the phone with the insurance company for about 10-15 minutes to finally figure out that they had changed the policy but it will not show up online until the policy renews, which, luckily is this week. I also had to call the bank and make sure they did not decide to add on insurance since the insurance company will not be sending proof until after the renewal. Anyways, insurance companies pissssssss me off sometimes, fuck that, allllllll the time.

Friday, September 01, 2006

It's been a busy week

All I can say is TGIF, TGIF, TGIF. I think you get the picture. This has been a long week and coming up, a long weekend. Unfortunately, like the past month and 1/2, this weekend will be busy. Aren't weekends supposed to be a break, time to catch up on rest and all that? Not at my house. My only solace this weekend is tonight. Crystal and I are going out, no children, no husbands, just us and maybe an old friend we haven't seen in a while (she wants to get away from the hubby and baby for a minute too). Bring on the BEER!!!!!!! We may call a cab to take us home when its all over. Ahhh, good times, good times!

Thursday, August 31, 2006

Yesterday was a (semi) wonderful day!!!

Ok, so yesterday was my day in court and it went BETTER THAN I COULD HAVE EXPECTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, so I get to court around 8:30ish, it doesn't start til 9, but, let's face it, I couldn't wait and parking downtown is a BITCH. So I'm sitting there waiting on the courtroom to open so I could go in a freeze my ass off and I'm thinking "ok, is the ex-husband gonna show up or what?" I am also wondering if he is gonna bring his new girlfriend of 2 months for the show (he didn't). I finally go into the courtroom and, since I've been there soooo many times since I got divorced, the judge's clerk knows who I am; how sad is that?? Anywho, she asks me if the ex is there (lets give him a better name than The Ex, how about the Loser, yeah I like that one).

Ok, back to my story. She asks me if The Loser is there and I told her that he is usually late but I was assuming he would show up. So court is called to order, blah, blah, blah, and the case before mine on the docket begins. The Loser shows up shortly after, which I was glad about cuz I don't wanna continue going back to court. The first case, boring as hell by the way, FINALLY finishes and they call me case. We move to sit up front and the judge asks me to go ahead and give him the facts, which he already had in front of him, but wanted me to kind of explain. So I explain to the judge that The Loser (I didn't call him that in Court, but I wanted to) hadn't paid child support since February of 2006. I also explained that we were in his courtroom one year ago for the same thing and 2 years before that also. The judge asks The Loser why he hasn't paid and he says he wasn't working for 2 and 1/2 months, yada, yada, yada, bullshit, bullshit, bullshit and thats why he couldn't pay. Mind you, he could ask his girlfriend to come and live with him and help to support her but not his own child. Ok, so the judge asks him why he didn't look for another job, and he tells him that he has looked and cannot find a job, ha! Come on now, McDonalds is always hiring.

The judge really didn't like this. The Loser brought in his latest paystub, he went back to work for his last job, and said that child support was being taken out. I looked at it and, yeah, child support was coming out...one fucking payment last week, WTF!!! I guess he though this was gonna be good enough to satisfy the judge. Well...it wasn't. The Loser is currently in the custody of the Shelby County Sheriff's Department and will be in their custody until he pays $2,500 bond which comes straight to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That was what I wanted but I wasn't sure it was gonna happen.

I thought about running up and hugging the judge, but I'm gonna guess that courtroom deputy would have frowned on that.

Anyway, I finally get to work around 11 and I am just in the best mood possible. I am at work for 2 hours when Alyssa's babysitter calls to tell my that my 7 month old is throwing up and has diarrhea. OMG, there goes the great mood. I go pick her up and take her to the doctor and she has a stomach virus. Where she got it remains a mystery, cuz, no one she's been around has one. Who the hell knows. But all in all yesterday was a pretty awesome day, at least for me, don't know about The Loser.

Tuesday, August 29, 2006


Yesterday evening, Chris was leaving to go coach football. I had just changed Alyssa's diaper and picked her up off the changing table just as he walked in the room to tell us bye. She turned around and saw him and, I swear, said DaDa like she knew what she was saying. I'm just not sure because she will sit and repeat dadadadadada and bwabwabwabwabwa over and over again. I just thought it was really cute that she said that (even though she should have said Ma-Ma first, I mean, I did have to be cut open and scared to death to give birth to her 4 weeks early).

Just a little info...

Tell Me About Yourself - The Survey
Birthplace::Memphis, Tennessee
Current Location::Memphis, Tennessee
Eye Color::Brown
Hair Color::Brown
Right Handed Or Left Handed::Right
Your Heritage::Irish, English, Lebanese
The Shoes You Wore Today::Black Sandals
Your Weakness::Chocolate
Your Fears::Bugs, making the wrong decisions regarding my kids
Your Perfect Pizza::Pepperoni & Jalapenos
Goals You Would Like To Achieve This Year::Buy a new house and complete my series 7 exam
Your Most Overused Phrase On An Instant Messenger::LOL
Thoughts First Waking Up::Already???
Your Best Physical Feature::My eyes? I don't know, ask my husband
Your Bedtime::Depends on the day, usually around 10pm
Your Most Missed Memory::I forgot, probably just being irresponsible with my friends when we were teenagers
Pepsi Or Coke::Coke
McDonalds Or Burger King::Both
Single Or Group Dates::Both
Lipton Ice Tea Or Nestea::Neither
Chocolate Or Vanilla::Chocolate
Cappucino Or Coffee::Coffee
Do You Smoke::Yes, but not alot
Do You Swear::Occasionally
Do You Sing::Only in the car
Do You Shower Daily::Of course
Have You Been In Love::I am in love!!
Do You Want To Go To College::Yes, I would like to finish one day
Do You Want To Get Married::I am very happily married
Do You Believe In Yourself::Most of the time; Chris does when I don't
Do You Get Motion Sickness::Sometimes, if I try to read in the car
Do You Think You Are Attractive::Most of the time
Are You A Health Freak::not really
Do You Get Along With Your Parents::Very well
Do You Like Thunderstorms::I love them; I love to sit on the porch and watch storms roll in, it's awe inspiring
Do You Play An Instrument::Nope
In The Past Month Have You Drank Alcohol::Yes
In The Past Month Have You Smoked::Yes
In The Past Month Have You Been On Drugs::No
In The Past Month Have You Gone On A Date::Yes, with my husband
In The Past Month Have You Gone To The Mall::Yes
In The Past Month Have You Eaten A Box Of Oreos::A whole box? Seriously, that's alot of Oreos!
In The Past Month Have You Eaten Sushi::No, I could use some though. Mmmmm, spicy crawfish with some wasabi!
In The Past Month Have You Been On Stage::No
In The Past Month Have You Been Dumped::No
In The Past Month Have You Gone Skinny Dipping::No
In The Past Month Have You Stolen Anything::No
Ever Been Drunk::Yes
Ever Been Called A Tease::I don't think so
Ever Been Beaten Up::Hell no!
Ever Shoplifted::No
How Do You Want To Die::Peacefully, in very old age
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up::Um...I wanna be a princess! Oh, wait, I already am!
What Country Would You Most Like To Visit::Oooooh, that's a tough question, there a sooooo many
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Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Just need to vent a little

Ok, so I consider myself to be a pretty reasonable person when it comes to my relationship with my ex-husband and our daughter. There are many things that he does as far as she is concerned that I don't agree with, but I've learned to pick and choose my battles. We get along 99% of the time. There have been times when I've had to speak up regarding certain things. Like the time a few months ago my 5, let me repeat that, 5 year old came home with her toenails painted BLACK. I had to put my foot down on that one. Anyway, back to my point...about 1 1/2 to 2 months ago, Kaylie tells me that her daddy's girlfriend (of not very long) has moved in with them. I didn't really have a problem with that, I lived with Chris for about 2 months before we go married and I certainly would not have appreciated my ex telling me that I was not allowed to. I met her about a month ago when I picked Kaylie up at his house. She seemed nice, a little young, but nice. Kaylie seems to like her, so I have no problem. Kaylie has started to play soccer and I decided to be nice and inform her father of all her practices so he could come if he was able. This past Monday, his girlfriend comes to watch Kaylie's practice. This is fine with me, I always want the people in Kaylie's life that are important to her to support her. Perhaps I should mention, Kaylie is playing soccer at a church. While at practice her team takes a water break and Kaylie comes over and says hi to daddy's girlfriend. Daddy's girlfriend precedes to, loudly, tell Kaylie she stinks (kiddingly of course) and then when Kaylie is going back onto the field, is loudly calling my child a booty head. This in front of 12 other impressionable young girls, plus all the other parents watching the practice. This happened each time Kaylie came for water break I might add. Finally when practice was over, Kaylie wanted to play on the church playground. I told her 5 minutes and then we had to go. It was late and Alyssa was getting restless and tired. While she's on the playground, daddy's girlfriend and her mother (she brought her with her) are standing right next to me talking. Girlfriend decides to tell her mother about how she and my ex were licking each other the night before. Ok, my daughter is well within earshot of this conversation and so are a couple of other kids. I don't know about you, but that is not something I want my child to be hearing. I could care less what she and my ex do, he is an ex for a reason, but there has got to be a better time and place for that conversation. Then she starts telling Kaylie that it's time to go. Look sweetie, I will decide when it is time for my child to leave, since she is leaving with me. I didn't say that or anything else. It was extremely difficult for me to keep my mouth shut. I don't have a problem with my ex having a girlfriend or her living with him, but I do wish that he would think about the potential impressions this person will leave on our daughter. I like to think that Chris's ex-wife sees me as a good stepmother to Haley. I don't know if she does, but I sincerely hope so, because in the long run, its will help us all to help raise Haley. As far am I am concerned Haley has a mother, a good one, and does not need another one. I am just there too help. I feel like I chose a wonderful stepfather for my daughter. He is respectful, sweet, caring, he loves me and Kaylie. Anyway, I just wanted to vent that I now have a very different opinion about my ex's new girlfriend.

Mini Vacation

I'm soooooo excited. Chris and I are gonna be going to watch the Titans play this weekend in Nashville. We've never been to an NFL game so we are so ready. Anyway, this is a mini-vacation for us, no kids, no jobs, hell...if we turn them off, no phones either! We need to get away from Memphis for, at least, a minute. We've got tooooooo much going on right now. What I need are some suggestions for things to do, places to go, drinks to drink, etc while we are in Nashville. Even though I have lived in Memphis all my life, I have only been to Nashvegas once and I was like 5, so I am pretty clueless and so is Chris. He was gonna ask a friend of his who goes up there about some places, but I'm not sure he has talked with him. He was also gonna ask his ex-wife, she goes up there for work occasionally, were a good place to stay was, but, once again, I don't think he has. Anyway, on to the point of this whole post. I need some suggestions!!! Help, help, help.

Oh, and, trust me, Chris already has the Bass Pro Shop in mind.

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

I need help!!!!

Ok, I've always been a tad unorganized when it comes to getting going in the mornings. It used to be lots easier when it was just me and Kaylie. Now it's me and Kaylie and Alyssa and I have to make sure Chris gets up, blah blah blah. I believe that my organization skills, or, lol, lack thereof, and my procrastination tendencies are catching up with me. It is getting harder and harder to remember all the shit I have to do and have ready and go to and get together everyday. I have know for 2 weeks that Kaylie's first soccer practice is tomorrow. I still keep forgetting. I think I am gonna have to get one of those day planners and seriously start writing this stuff down, my mom would say, I told you so. I feel like I'm getting old cuz I can't remember my own name most days. Does anyone want to come to my house and keep up with all this shit for me??? Anyone? Bueller? Bueller?

I think it's all the kids; they are sucking out my ability to think. Obviously, since I said I want another one!

Friday, August 11, 2006

Stupid ex-husband

I just really need to vent about my ex-husband. On August 30 we have to go back to court, again, because the asshole just will not pay his child support. This is the 3rd time I have had to file a contempt petition against him. I just don't understand how he can justify not taking care of his child. She is only with him 6 days out of a freakin month, but, I guess, since he buys her clothes (so he says, but somehow he keeps sending her home in clothes from last year that don't fit and keeping the ones we've bought her), and feeds her while she's there, that is plenty. I have even asked him not to give the money directly to me, just pay for childcare, soccer, school supplies, anything and he still won't do it. Let me give you a little background on this loser. He has 4 kids, by 3 different women (I know, I know, that should have been a huge red flag) and his oldest child he just met last year. He doesn't even see his other 2. Thankfully he, at least, still sees Kaylie. He lives in his mom's house, which is paid for so there is no mortgage to pay. He doesn't have any bills (these are his words) but he can't afford to pay his child support. Yet, he can afford to ask his girlfriend to move in with him. He can support her but not his own child, WTF.

Each time I have taken him to court, the judge (same one each time) has given him extra time to work the situation out and each time he pays the child support for a couple of months and then quits his job again or just tells them to stop taking the child support out (i'm not really sure which one). I am hoping like hell that he gets his stupid ass thrown in jail and hopefully someone will want to make him there wife while he's there and he won't want to go back and he'll start paying what he owes me. All in all he owes pretty close to $10,000. I guess he thinks I'm just gonna let that go, he's fuckin crazy!

Thursday, August 10, 2006


Ok, I want everyone to cross their fingers and toes and whatever else you can cross. Chris and I are just this close to getting a new house. I can't tell you how excited we are about this. I cannot wait to be able to sit down and choose my carpets, my tile colors, wall colors and even my appliances. I'll keep ya posted on the outcome.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Safe Haven Laws

Ok, I am all for the Safe Haven laws that we have in this state. But, I guess, being a mom myself, I just don't understand how someone can walk away from their own child. Then again, I have never found myself an teenage, unwed mom either. What makes me angry about the law is not the law itself, but the fact you never hear about until some child winds up dead. Just yesterday, a woman dropped a newborn baby off at a fire station in midtown and she is one of the few that actually use the law. She had faith that she would not be in trouble and that that baby would be taken care of. The first thing I saw about it made it sound like the police were not sure if they were gonna press charges against her or not because a fire station is "not technically a safe have". That was the biggest bunch of bullshit! She could have done what that other young mother did last month, which was, give birth and bury her baby in the woods. Instead she at least cared enough to be sure the baby at least has a chance at life, whether she could or wanted to take care of it or not. Like I said, I have never been in a situation like that, but this is how I feel about it. I think there should be a larger effort to educate women about this law so that these innocent children have a chance. Ok, I feel a little better now. How bout you?


Ok, I finally did it, I have set up a blog. Now I can come on here and say what I want, when I want and you can't stop me, ha.

Right now, I have to actually do some work while I'm at work, so this is all you're getting. I do have one question though, when did blogging become so popular and what do you usually blog about?